Have you ever had a day where everything seems to go wrong and it really does go wrong, yet it seems so sureal that you feel as though its not really happening to you, but it is? Well I had a day like that yesterday. I would have made a blog about it yesterday but the way things were going I was afraid the computer would explode on me or that my blog would die and I would never be able to retrieve it from the internet highway graveyard. I woke up late to start my day yesterday, and then I threw on some clothes, not looking and had them inside out.. at least my shirt was anyways... rushed to work.. got stuck behind a VERY VERY stupid driver.. when the speed limit says 40... and you do 20 that is a huge indication that you do not know how to drive... but I eventually was able to get around the guy and then he sped up so I couldn't pass him.. oh well.. I got over and was able to make my turn without having him hit me or anything of that sort... I got stuck waiting for a train.. which usually doesn't bother me.. but I had started off on the wrong side of the bed... got to work and sat in my car for my normal 30 minute prayer time... realized I had only 5 minutes before I had to go in to work and gathered my stuff and said a quick prayer. That is when everything else went down hill.I realized today that not having my morning prayer and not having my devotions early morning really set my emotions on a rollercoaster... and I was going downhill at the moment. I was sitting in the front seat with no seatbelt going down the highest hill on that rollercoaster and as I tried to pull on the brakes it broke in my hands. ok.. not litterally, but that was what it was like.. there was no stoping the day... no backing up and starting over.
((this pic is what happens when you don't have God on the rollercoaster with you))
I walked into my office and put my stuff down and as I put it down it started... there was a mistake I had done.. I was taken aside and reprimanded, made to call the patient and get things fixed and striaghted around and all this BEFORE I could clock in. After finishing up trying to make the patient see that I had made a mistake and that I needed to fix it and make it right for him, I went and clocked in. I started answering phones and got a few nurses that got upset at me for not knowing what they were talking about when they used a lot of doctor techno words... sure I can schedule the patients, but I can't if I have no idea what to schedule! I forgot to get insurance on a few patients and my co-worker got upset at me.... my office partner at that... and so when I was talking to a patient, I heard her in the back ground grumbling and complaining and hitting her keyboards... later I found out it wasnt cause of me.. it was cause her computer was acting up, however while on the phone and hearing this I thought that for sure she was very upset with me.. and the sad thing is its my mother-in-law. I Love my mom#2 however, she needs to learn to deal with anger a little better.. oh well.
Eventually lunch came.. and then I realized I had no lunch.. I had rushed outta the house so fast that I didn't bring a lunch.. so I went and got something.. which was the highlight of my day at work... then ate and tried to settle down. I never let the patients on the phone know that I was having a bad day but I was! I scheduled a few people and had to call them back to get insurance information becuse I had forgotten to get it the first time. I couldn't do anything on the computer but my job.. the internet was not working.
I sat there at work trying not to cry as more and more people founds mistakes that I had made and were making because I was upset.. not mad upset but on the verge of tears upset and I HATE crying!
After my mom and Wade left... and I had 30 min alone to answer the phone, it was ok.. but I got a call for a procedure I had never put in the system before and I didn't know that you had to have an injection with it.. so I booked it as it was.. and then called down cause they wanted to have him in stat.. now.. today.. that sorta thing..made sure he could come down and get admited if he did.. everything was alright... then the nurse called me and asked me why I hadn't put the injection on the list of things scheduled?! Oh my word.. I didn't know to book that to.. so I booked it and everything was alright.. but I got reamed from that nurse for a long while about how inept I am and how I need to not take orders and schedule patients if I don't know what I'm doing and she can't see how I have this job when I don't know what i'm doing. Anyways... I hung up with her and then saw it was time to leave so I clocked out.. and it didn't clock me out.. so I had to turn around and do it agian... cause I was called back to work (after beign halfway home) so I came back and clocked out. I went home and as I opened the front door the onterage of tears come pouring down my face.. I went to the bedroom and just layed down on the bed crying.
I have forgotten to tell you.. all day I had a pain in my right side.. near where my overies are and its still hurting today.. I have no idea what it could be.. but when I had told my mom#2 about it she told me that pain was not an excuse to go home early.. i was just wondering what in the world it could be... I even took 4 pain killers and it didn't help.... so i was getting concerned because the pain killers where the same kind that I had when I had my galbladder surgery... very strong.. and if they weren't working that means that something is wrong.
Anyways, I layed in bed crying, my side hurting and I cried myself to sleep. My husband came home. The house was dark and I was asleep.. dinner was not on my mind and I wasnt' about to get up and make it. He came into the room and woke me up asking about dinner and how long have I been home and since I have been home about an hour why I didn't have dinner going... I started crying agian and then he held me and told me that he loved me and that is when the rollercoaster had hit bottom and had started up the next hill... things where getting better. I cried for a good long time.. about 2 hours and talked with my husband and he made me talk to his mom and everything started to look better.
I heard and felt a rumble in my stomach and went to get dinner.. though my wonderful husband beat me to the kitchen and made us some dinner and we sat and talked for a long time.. it was a very intimate close time.. and then we played on W.o.W. a little and then fell asleep together. It was good.. being next to my husband and knowing that he cares for me.. we prayed together and then I fell asleep.This morning was way better. I woke up a little early and just cuddled next to my husband and then got a few good morning kisses. As I got ready for work we talked, usually he is still sleeping but he got up with me to see me off. It was really sweet of him. I drove to work and got stuck behind a slow moving vehicle but it didnt' bother me today.. and then I sat in my car and prayed .. had my devotions and now I'm ready.. I have God with me today. I can handle the bumps and the small hills that will come my way on this rollercoaster today...I have God in the seat next to me.. how can I fall or fail if He is there?
~Joy~
That sounds like a typical morning for me, lol. I'm always rushing in the mornings since I had the baby. I talk to God a lot on the way to work so that I can keep my sanity. That's great that your day finally started to go uphill, but you really need to be careful with that side pain. Good thing it wasn't appendicitis.