We go through life planning things having things all at our convience and in our timing but its not about our timing at all.. its about God and His timing. He has everything planned and perfected for us and his time is always perfect though we may not see it. Yesterday I peed on a stick and the first one told me that I had peed too much on it.. so I had to drink alot of fluids to have to pee agian. My husband took me out to eat and I drank alot of Mt dew.. the thing I know that would make me need to pee. When I got home I went to the bathroom and peed on another stick while my husband talked to his best friend.
I look at the stick and it said "Pregnant" so I am going to be a mom in 9 months give or take a few days. I grabed the stick and shoved it in my husband's face because he wouldn't get off the phone for me to tell him and his face lite up with a huge grin. He was excited and told his best friend right away.. who was more excited that we are getting a kitten then having a child... but was excited non the less. I called my dad and let him know and my mom and my 5 siblings.. which my twin brothers were telling me that they are going to be uncles before they graduate high school and that its wierd and that I should have waited till they were out of highschool.
Though my one brother said he was going to go to school telling everyone that his sister was pregnant.. I just hope he clarifies which sisters as one is still in highschool and they may think its her.. *lol* oh well. I had to tell my Grandpa on my dad's side 5 different times getting louder every time I told him because he didn't have his hearing aid in and couldn't hear me.. but that is alright. I also told my in laws and My fatherinlaw was Excited and my mom inlaw was shocked and asked how it could happen.. so I started to explain that when two people are married and they ... and so she cut me off and said she was in shock. But she is glad to day.. though still having mix feelings. Everyone at work is excited for me.
I say all this to say that I am not sure if I want to be pregnant. I mean I'm not going to get an abortion or anything and I'll carry this blessing from God as long as God wants me to.. but we weren't planning on kids and our finiaces are not where I would like them to be and I really don't think we can afford to have child and all the things that come with being parents. I'm scared and I'm not affriad to admit it. I don't know what to expect being pregnant and I'm scared that i'll be a horrible mom and I dont' want to be horrible. I am praying and trying to give this over to God but its hard. I know in my brain that I'll be fine and that God will take care of us.. but my stupid emotions are working over time. I seriously thought that I was having a really bad pms this time which never really happens to me. I am the kind of person that you would rarely if ever see cry and it seems to be all I can do these days though I am probably only 3 weeks along. I have started getting more emotional and I hate it...but its alright because I expected this to come with the territory.
I am excited at the same time still in shock. But now I HAVE to get a digital camera so I can keep track and show everyone how I look as I get realy fat and waddle like a duck and then take pics of this blessing once he/she is born. I'm hoping for a boy but will be happy with a girl. I just won't look forward to the girly girl years.. of makeup and such.
~shocked and amazed~
~Joy~
This family's Rollercoaster ride,
Where God only knows the track,
and He sitting by our side,
helping us where we lack.
Where God only knows the track,
and He sitting by our side,
helping us where we lack.
From: Plano, Texas, United States
About me: I am married to a wonderful man for 2 yrs and have a daughter who is going to be one in Decemner. I am a 28 yr old christian woman trying to learn from God daily and helping in a church plant. This is my blog about the rollercoaster i'm on called Life. Its full of ups and downs but one thing is that God is constently there.. and always helping me along.
Joy - congratulations!! It's perfectly normal to be feeling all of the emotions you mentioned above. I don't know if anyone is "READY" for a baby when it actually comes right down to it. You will be an excellent Mommy...don't worry about that part! Enjoy this time, God has blessed you & your hubby and will take care of you. All the best!