Thursday, April 26, 2007
Baby and things...
I found out that I am 7 weeks and 3 days pregnant.. on day more then I thought.. but that is alright.. I was very close. I had my first sono.. and it was transvagenal but that was ok. It felt realy wierd and I am not going to go into details but lets just say I was glad that the tech was a female. I got to see the peanut size child inside of me. They counted the heart beat and its 120 which is good.. and healthy. The child also is looking healthy. We tried to listen to the heart beat but unfortunaitly my uteris is tilted back and so they couldn't get the machine to hear it.. we will hear it later when the baby is bigger, though I got to watch it on the screen. The tech told me that the baby droped from my right overy though it doesn't matter, just something that was informative. I got a picture of my first baby its to the right of this paragraph. As you can see the baby sin't the black stuff.. that is the liguid sourounding it.. and the aby is the little peanut size thing in the black area.. the little heart was beating up towards the top near the middle. It really is the size of a peanut yet its such a little sinner. The bible says that from conception you are a sinner.. but this child is a blessing to.. sent from God to us.

I am starting to have morning sickness. I didn't for a while, just was a little nauseated at times and certian smells make me quesy.. though for the most part I have been blessed with not having bad morning sickness. I did have 3 days so far that were very bad mornings.. and I don't like hugging the ceramic toliet very much.. I mean I like using it.. but I don't like huggin it. :D

I don't feel so much differnt other then that and the peeing out the Alantic ocean every day. If I hadn't taken the pregnancy test, I don't think I would have noticed a big enough difference to scare me into thinking I was pregnant. The only reason I thought I may be was because I was a week late on my menstrual cycle and that is unusual.

I went out yesterday and got some maternity clothes, though I am hoping to actually lose weight this pregnacy and I can if I eat healthy and if I excerise.. though I still need to eat the same things and have 300 extra calaries a day.. but other then that I can lose weight. They said if I dont' eat fating food then the baby will start taking calaries from my stored fat.. which can help me lose weight.. so Yeah.. i may end up beign skinner after I have the baby then before the baby.. at least I keep telling myself that if I work at it.. I will be.

I am starting to walk alot and it feels good to do that. I sleep alot to.. I can't believe how tired i am getting all the time. Though I am hoping that it will pass and that the next trimaster will be better for me.

Please leave any comments if you want and also pray for me... I could use all the prayers that people are willing to send on my behalf.

~Mommy to be~
~~~~Joy~~~~

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Tuesday, April 10, 2007
BLESSINGS FROM GOD
We go through life planning things having things all at our convience and in our timing but its not about our timing at all.. its about God and His timing. He has everything planned and perfected for us and his time is always perfect though we may not see it. Yesterday I peed on a stick and the first one told me that I had peed too much on it.. so I had to drink alot of fluids to have to pee agian. My husband took me out to eat and I drank alot of Mt dew.. the thing I know that would make me need to pee. When I got home I went to the bathroom and peed on another stick while my husband talked to his best friend.

I look at the stick and it said "Pregnant" so I am going to be a mom in 9 months give or take a few days. I grabed the stick and shoved it in my husband's face because he wouldn't get off the phone for me to tell him and his face lite up with a huge grin. He was excited and told his best friend right away.. who was more excited that we are getting a kitten then having a child... but was excited non the less. I called my dad and let him know and my mom and my 5 siblings.. which my twin brothers were telling me that they are going to be uncles before they graduate high school and that its wierd and that I should have waited till they were out of highschool.

Though my one brother said he was going to go to school telling everyone that his sister was pregnant.. I just hope he clarifies which sisters as one is still in highschool and they may think its her.. *lol* oh well. I had to tell my Grandpa on my dad's side 5 different times getting louder every time I told him because he didn't have his hearing aid in and couldn't hear me.. but that is alright. I also told my in laws and My fatherinlaw was Excited and my mom inlaw was shocked and asked how it could happen.. so I started to explain that when two people are married and they ... and so she cut me off and said she was in shock. But she is glad to day.. though still having mix feelings. Everyone at work is excited for me.

I say all this to say that I am not sure if I want to be pregnant. I mean I'm not going to get an abortion or anything and I'll carry this blessing from God as long as God wants me to.. but we weren't planning on kids and our finiaces are not where I would like them to be and I really don't think we can afford to have child and all the things that come with being parents. I'm scared and I'm not affriad to admit it. I don't know what to expect being pregnant and I'm scared that i'll be a horrible mom and I dont' want to be horrible. I am praying and trying to give this over to God but its hard. I know in my brain that I'll be fine and that God will take care of us.. but my stupid emotions are working over time. I seriously thought that I was having a really bad pms this time which never really happens to me. I am the kind of person that you would rarely if ever see cry and it seems to be all I can do these days though I am probably only 3 weeks along. I have started getting more emotional and I hate it...but its alright because I expected this to come with the territory.

I am excited at the same time still in shock. But now I HAVE to get a digital camera so I can keep track and show everyone how I look as I get realy fat and waddle like a duck and then take pics of this blessing once he/she is born. I'm hoping for a boy but will be happy with a girl. I just won't look forward to the girly girl years.. of makeup and such.

~shocked and amazed~
~Joy~

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